When my Maternity Leave came to an end with Jackson, the thought of going back to work and being away from my little baby was so difficult. I know that I am not alone with this but I ended up being one of the lucky ones who could do something which meant that I didn't have to leave him - I decided to become a Childminder. I didn't really do it to make loads of money or grow a business, all I wanted was to make 'X' amount of money to help with our income and be with Jackson at the same time.
For most of the time, I would just have one other child, which meant that I could still give them both the right amount of attention and I could still head out to do all the activities that both Jackson and I love, by getting a double buggy to transport them both. Has it been difficult at times? Of course it has - anyone who has a toddler of their own knows it has it's testing moments but, wow, have I had some pretty amazing times too. For instance, watching Jackson's relationships grow with the other children I have looked after - with some of the regular children, they have formed more of a sibling-like relationship, which has been absolutely lovely to see.
I have really enjoyed being a Childminder and have been incredibly lucky with the particular children I have looked after, and their families, which I know has made the experience so much easier. I am now on Maternity Leave waiting for baby #2 to make their appearance. I wonder if Jackson is hoping for a little brother or a little sister?!
However, after this period of Maternity, I am not sure what I am going to do. This is all very premature, I know, as I haven't even given birth yet and I expect that my feelings will all change after little Beebee is here. However, I feel that after nearly 2 years (3 years once my Maternity Leave is over) I will want to do something for myself, whether it be a new Career path or not. At this moment in time, I am not sure but, of course, I will want it to fit around my babies. I have started putting my thinking cap on already and I am trying to work towards a few goals, although I am also trying not to put too much pressure on myself right now, as this will be such a precious time when they are so little, which is time you don't get back once it has passed. I think we all look for that perfect job that gives the perfect balance BUT does it really exist!? It's such a big decision for me to make, one I hope will become clearer in the near future.
Any suggestions on that perfect job, please feel free to send them my way!!!
Love Sophia xxx